All I can say now...

.. is that I have finally found my own Knight. And yes, he is the one who can stand up for me, loves me, fights for me, scold me thru his witty sense of humor.

I aM iN lOvE with my man.. and the best part of it is... he has never stopped loving me since we met on that wonderful day in the summder of '88.

Cheers to True Love!

I love you, my 'lil naughty Chef!

May God bless us and the love we share.

Here's to forever! Thank you.. xoxoxo

Long, Long Time

Love will abide, take things in stride Sounds like good advice but there's no one at my side And time washes clean love's wounds unseen That's what someone told me but I don't know what it means. Cause I've done everything I know to try and make you mine And I think I'm gonna love you for a long long time Caught in my fears Blinking back the tears I can't say you hurt me when you never let me near And I never drew one response from you All the while you fell all over girls you never knew Cause I've done everything I know to try and make you mine And I think it's gonna hurt me for a long long time Wait for the day You'll go away Knowing that you warned me of the price I'd have to pay And life's full of flaws Who knows the cause? Living in the memory of a love that never was Cause I've done everything I know to try and change your mind and I think I'm gonna miss you for a long long time Cause I've done everything I know to try and make you mine And I think I'm gonna love you for a long long time. ======= Things are the way they are. For whatever reason, we fall.. mostly unexpectedly and sometimes - madly. Then we either get lucky, or we don't. The only way to survive and stay afloat is by practicing a deep level of maturity and the key is acceptance and choosing to value what matters the most. I chose not to destroy - but to cherish and nurture... - Terri http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB7T3lJ3dZ4 =======

In search of Love...

A lady dear to me asked me recently if I was looking for love and if I still wanted to be with someone. I told her I wasn't actively searching.

I would rather just wait and leave it up to the Lord to see if it is still part of God's plan for my life.

Been there, done that. I choose this attitude towards having a relationship because I have learned that each and everytime we try to force things in search of love, it backfires. Everything seems to go wrong and things hardly turn out the way they should. Yup. Hardly does. Trust me.

Why don't they? Because God intends everything to be given through grace. He after all, is the Giver. He is in control and He blesses the gifts he gives us. I have this line engraved in my heart, "Kung ibibigay Nya, at kung ipagkakalob Nya, tanggapin ng buong loob."

And if nothing good happens? I will not fret. And even then, I would still give Him thanks and praise because I know that He only wants what's best for me. And when the time comes when I will see God face-to-face one day, I will know the reason behind everything that has ever happened in my life. And it will be a cause for rejoicing!

Lonely nights. Yes, there are lonely nights... empty nights. When I'd want to cuddle up to someone whom I love and who in turn loves me.

What I do instead. I exert enough effort to think of other things to divert my attention. I hold on to my faith and love for Jesus and Our dear Lady(who is the perfect example of modesty and faith).

One day.. it will all be a cause for rejoicing! Cheers...

Up for Calltek's Basketball Team

I was not fond of basketball until I met Riche. He was very good at 3 pointer shots. And little by little, my interest in the sport has made me look forward to it every chance I get. Well, of course, I only watch if I know some, if not all the players.

This year's Inter-CallCenter Basketball Tournament has begun. And I get to watch Calltek's team at every game.

I am proud to say that they are all good players. I will continue to cheer for the team.I am so proud of them all! God bless!

Bodacious of a Generous Heart

Below is a poem from a friend of mine. She was so kind to have made it for me and she clearly saw what I was going through.

Bodacious We may not see each other and I maybe a passing friend but you are leaving an imprint to me which is lasting..Here’s my testimonial for you;

Bodacious of a Generous Heart

You left your love untouch..How could you?
You who shamed me and them
In love, defined tenacity
In friendship, empathy
Trust is a given

You taught me, in your unaffected ways
Not to give up..on Love
Fileo, Eros…You made them unconditional
How could you? Can I not?

Your heart is lookin’ at the horizons..
Full of faith, full of hope
Your eyes aglow with a promise of Love- requited
From your beloved…who choose to love
But not you.

Dont give up on him..me..
For yours is mine too
Unspeakable bond of two women..
cursed to eternity..but not hell
Who loves but not loved
Who cares..but not cared.

You choose to leave your love untouch
I did not hear you moan…but you are, arent you?
Hidden beneath those smiles..are gazillions of tears..
Which you shed for him…me..others
But did you shed at least one for you?

Bodacious of the Generous Heart..
How I wish to be like you
Untouch by pain, undaunted by miseries
Many a friend will come to you
Many a men to love..but you wont run out..
For yours is a stream flowing with sympathy and
understanding

You have a generous heart
and you put us all to shame
Dont leave your love untouch,
Shout if you must, spit on the gravel..
Pray on the evening
For GOD, who authors our faith
Will surely heed you..
Your Love…not in vain..
from, Skye

I am only One, but still I am one; I cannot do everything; but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do the something that I can do——– Edward Everett Hale

A lightbulb moment...

When I was doing some reflection in my room the other day, I had several realizations that I thought were worth sharing.. My hope is that some of you would also find them useful. Please read on:

I realized that whatever you have wished for or prayed for gets answered the moment you acknowledge the desire in you heart or utter them from your lips.

God has already heard them and below are just some of the ways the answers are presented:

1. When you immediately get what you ask for
- you will recognize it as an answered prayer.

2. If you do not get what you have prayed for
- Know that it is because what you asked for is not part of His plan for your life. Or that you asked for something that only you will benefit from. Or it may be because He has something better in store for you which is more pleasing to Him and which will bring you greater good, peace and contentment.

3. On the other hand, If you dont get what you want and still feel contented knowing that you've offered it up to God, and if you're OK even if you don't get a favorable answer, that too is already the answer to your prayer.

"Some years are searching for answers and some years are THE answers".

When things don't go your way:

In the loss of a loved one, when you have an unanswered prayer, or when you are in a broken relationship and are hurting... Know that you are in what I call the "Incubation Period":

Being in this stage means that God wants your undivided attention and does not want any interruptions or distractions because there is something valuable HE wants to impart to you. It can also be because HE needs you to learn the lesson from the experience to make you a stronger person.

When you are in this period of purification, all you can do is sit back, reflect, meditate, and pray. You cannot run away from God. This is how He molds you, teach you and get you close to Him because he is Our Father. I know He does these things because he loves us for all eternity!

Batch 4 Kiats

I had written this July 4th, 2006... I couldn't resist reposting this as a tribute to those ladies who have left us behind. You are greatly missed!

My friends… My sisters… My family…My whatchamacallits…

They see me as me. They comfort me when i’m down, laugh at my "corny" jokes, celebrate with me when i’ve a reason to, tease me whenever they get the chance, scold me when i need a good spanking and basically just to be around me when we need each other. Marking our 1st year at the PBB house, we went for a Walk-a-thon by accident and that was how the name of the team was formed.

They had their chance to put me in the hotseat. Now, the tables are turned… There’s no stopping me on what i have to say about these little rascals i call- "Terri’s ‘pak Team":

meryliza a.k.a. Brandy -> "the enlightened one" —> new name: "pas"

She is one gal endowed with wisdom and a photographic memory. can memorize a quote no matter how long it is and even if she only heard it once before. liz is a happy person, knows how to have fun, is open-minded and not picky with the food nor the places we pick out to visit so long as she is with friends she cares about. Loves shoes and bags so much. Crazy about Craig David. When she "lets her hair down", she can be very funny and wacky. A friend in every sense of the word. Loyalty is her byword. Watch out though… this girl doesn’t like to be teased (but loves to tease the whole gang). Unfair? True. We live with this reality… and you better do the same, lest you lose a friendship that is meant to last a lifetime. A word of advice: Don’t mess with her. Liz is a sincere individual… hasta sa pag binuang, sincere gihapon… basta Delta gani, buang2x gud na, guaranteed! hahaha, ayg palag brands akoa ning blog

lovely a.k.a. Summer -> "the head-turner" —> new name: "lag"

Naa na ta diri’s exotic beauty… as in– insanely delicious! Miss Photogenic! One time, when it was Lovely’s turn to introduce herself, she said, "i’m lovely".. and the guy replied " i know you’re lovely, but what’s your name?"… Wow! heads turned, jaws dropped and people couldn’t help but chuckle among themselves… i should know, i was in that same room myself, hahaha… That was just the beginning of more kilig moments to come, sshhh can’t write it here (try asking me in private and i just might tell ya!). Lovely is the perfect match when it comes to liz’s teasing as this girl does not budge no matter how hard we tease and try to push her to admit as to how hot and desirable she is to the person who is captivated by her charm and beauty. Peace bai! May araw ka rin… haha. Kalma kau nga bayi, bisdak nga matuod… street-smart, good at organizing gigs and parties, generous and artistic. Feed her bacon morning, noon and night and this girl will never tire of it. What amazes me is her humility/modesty even if she knows how pretty she is… Delta gud, waffa jud parehas aning…

ronielyn a.k.a. Ronie -> " the high-heeled TL (Team Leader) " —> new name : "bok"

This young lady is vibrant, spirited, creative and electrifying… kiatan to the core. Ever heard of the saying, "Laughter is the best medicine"? Think ronie. Super dooper kalog when in the mood to joke around. And want to know a secret? She has super powers just like her look-alike Juday. Watch and see how men gravitate towards her everytime she dons her kristala necklace. I really am at a loss as to why men find this gal highly attractive during those moments that they just cant seem to get enough of her. Unlike liz who is blessed with a photographic memory, this girl is endowed with a 4-no-gra-fic memory… hahaha(say what??- did i hear that right?). Could it be because she is multi-talented? Ronie can play the drums, the guitar, she can sing and dance pretty well. She break-dances like a pro, hahahaha! Ronie is my idol… really! Because she knows how to behave appropriately in every situation. A truly sincere lady, she will offer help the best way she can. A loyal friend, she doesn’t play pretend as she will tell you straight away whether or not you’re being dumb or not. Lover of the color old rose. If i owned Jolibee, she would be my beloved mascot and image model for life! And talking about modelling, he comes…

trisha a.k.a. Trisha -> "the Observer" —> new name: "bala"

Fashion runs thru her veins. She can pull up an ensemble that matches her mood and she definitely has an eye for elegant style. Creative in fashion designing. Clothes are her weakness. She makes her own bags. And she sews like a pro too! Meticulous and very observant in everything that catches her eyes. Keen on details. Lover of adventure. Lover of good food! Loves to nibble and snack… She is easy to please, but mind you, she is one faithful lady to her beloved. Fortunate is the man who will walk her down the aisle as she is good at keeping house and at ironing out financial matters. Trish is straight-forward. She speaks her mind and is not afraid to point out whatever needs to be corrected. That’s what i call honesty… blessed she is indeed for not being scared to speak up for the truth. Which leads me to my next subject of blessedness…

jonana a.k.a. Jamie -> "One blessed child" new name —> "bat"

Pure-hearted… that is Jonana. Why else would i tag her as "one blessed child" ? My baby jamie. She symbolizes what an ideal daughter should be. Kind, unselfish, forgiving, unpretentious, unadulterated, uncomplicated. Jamie brings a smile to our hearts… My savior when i fall short of "dough" in my pocket. And she is a very amiable girl. Let me balance it out… I’m not talking about "dullness" here… she may be nice but not at all the goody-goody type as this girl also knows how to have a good time. Karaoke queen as i know her to be and while at it, she can certainly gulp down a substantial amount of beer during her stint. How so much beer can fit into that tiny frame, that to me is simply mysterious… And who among us is known for being mysterious? There’s only one:

april a.k.a Paige -> "the Mysterious one" new name —> "pagi"

It will take you gazillion years to even get close as to find out what really goes on in her mind. Mysterious? Absolutely! The eyes says it all… just one look, a stare or even a glance from her will give you shivers down your spine. You won’t know what hit you! Hahahahaha… She epitomizes what a tough lady should be. To me, she will always be the real Tough Cookie. This girl loves classic films and ’80s & ’90s music by female artists. You can never ask this girl to carry an umbrella around, hmm.. the expression, "at a drop of a hat" is more like her as this gal is firm and decisive in her conviction. She loves caps and hats so much too. A pc genius, she designs websites and is really good at it. The quiet beauty among the team, she can be a big tease when let loose. And yet, she shows respect for each and every one of our individual beliefs.

This is just some of the insights as to why we as the ‘pak team click at what we do and why our friendship is extraordinary. Our personalities mesh and blend flawlessly. I love them all, and i pray for more years of laughter and togetherness. Cheers, guys.. lotsa love!

Service par Excellance

Yesterday my experiences were so crappy...
... they made me very unhappy

I need a time-out,
something we all can't live without

Being angry
brings out the worst in me

Oh, please customer be kinder to me...
... it's the only thing I ask of thee

More than my salary, what would please me,
is to be of service to thee

Let us please work on this together
So that working as a team will make us both prosper.

GOD bless America!

Happy Fourth of July to all Americans. Since the Fourth of July is a celebration of America and all things American, i would like to extend this greeting to my family and relatives who have called America their home for the past 2 decades.

This is the day to thank such a great nation for entrusting a good part of the BPO industry to our country. Thus providing jobs and a bright future to so many of us. We appreciate the trust you have given to us filipinos and especially those who are presently in your country.

God bless you all on this day! Cheers!

a Gift...

There is no such thing as a self made man..

everything is a gift.

What you are is God's gift to you...

...what you become, is your gift to God!

The truth about forever...

... is that there's no such thing.

Forever only exists in Heaven..

People fall in love. But may fall out of love.

We try to mask our emotions. But get found out eventually.

Material security is never a guarantee.

Even if we think we are at our peak, our health fail us too.

The only forever I know is God and my relationship with Him.

I'm pretty excited!

I was writing a possible blog entry yesterday when Josh, a colleague of mine happened to pass by and noticed what I was doing. He was kind enough to teach about how to register my site on to google/adsense.

I don't consider myself a good writer but just the fact that my site will be accessible by the public got me really excited. I had heard that there are people who actually buy blog entries.

Thank you, Josh for sharing! God bless you!

There's a dream of someone...

Never give up. Life is what you make of it and the chances we take and the choices we make will determine the kind of life we are destined to live.

Having had my heart broken has brought about more blessings than I can ever imagine. For one, it has brought me closer to Jesus. It is one thing to say how good God is, but it is another thing to get up in the morning and be able to say, "i love you, Father God" and really mean it from the bottom of your heart. I never believed I would reach a point in my life where I could appreciate God and realize how I'm blessed with so much wisdom and understanding, but I do now.

Having gone through the pain of shedding the most bitter tears from losing a baby has also made me discover how strong I am in the face of adversity and tragedy as long as I am open to all the lessons and apply them through each experience.

I have learned to be calmer no matter what, to be kinder, compassionate and more patient towards everyone. Traits that I could only wish for in the past.

I am far from ready in getting into another relationship. I am afraid that It will hurt the same way it did. But I have not turned cynical about love nor on the possibility of falling in love again.

If two individuals are truly meant to be together, I believe their joy will be complete and they will be an inspiration to each other to become better people while the love they have for each other will permeate all throughout their lives and on the lives of even their children's chidren. God has to be in the center of the relationship for it work out, for the marriage to be blissful.

There's a dream of someone far away. And each time he comes to mind, I see clearly that the odds are high and it seems as if I'm reaching for the stars, but then again, I believe God will make it happen and he will turn my way if it's truly meant to be.

His Will be done.

Everything starts with God and ends with God.

Looking Ahead

Pay it forward..

Kindness - give it to somebody else if the person you intend to give it to is not interested.

Hope - it is said and proven that prayer changes the hearts of people. Keep praying.

I had a sort of "funny" and comforting visualization the other day. That there were two of me and each one acquiring the exact opposite chracteristics from the other.. It then gave me a feeling of relief when I imagined that my ex met and dealt with the mean side of me and he was not able to meet the other one who is nice and good. In short, he got to know the wrong person. I know that past is past and that I will never be able to make right what I did wrong. But, i can do better in my next relationship.

I will stop crying for him. I need to take care of me.

Paying it forward.

Clutter

Over the weekend, I have been able to muster enough courage to finally take the first step in clearing my life of unnecessary baggage. I got rid of all the clutter in my room. Not only did it provide a sense of "freedom" but most importantly , it gave me a sense of control over my emotions and selfishness.

What is even more amazing is the fact that when I went through my hotmail just a few moments ago, i saw that the title of the email i got yesterday from Food for Thought was, "Sorting Out".

Yes, it really is liberating to be freed of all clutter: materially, emotionally and even spiritually.

No questions asked...

"Lord, I believe, please help my unbelief; I don't understand, please help me understand."

4 months since the breakup, here I am still hurting for having lost the possibility of becoming a mother.

I have learned that no matter how much we try, if it is not part of God's plan for us, it will never materialize, it will not happen.

Only GOD knows. He knows what's best for him and He knows what's best for me.

I only need to trust God that the best will come to me at the right time...

In His own perfect time.

the only important guiding principle in Life

Wait on the Lord.


He has said, "be still and know I am GOD".



We are in a hurry but God is not.


All comes at the proper time to him who knows how to wait.


I have learned that if you have a plan, God also has a plan - and your plan doesn't count.

Insights from my broken heart

Put GOD first and foremost in your life...

...because it is He who will give you your heart's desire of True Love's kiss!




So i whisper to my inmost being - don't worry... the right one will come, and you'll know when it does!

Just a question

What is love supposed to really feel like?